This Darkness Mine by Mindy McGinnis

This Darkness Mine

Sasha Stone knows her place—first-chair clarinet, top of her class, and at the side of her oxford-wearing boyfriend. She’s worked her entire life to ensure that her path to Oberlin Conservatory as a star musician is perfectly paved.But suddenly there’s a fork in the road, in the shape of Isaac Harver. Her body shifts toward him when he walks by, her skin misses his touch e...

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This Darkness Mine Reviews

  • Trina (Between Chapters)

    Between 2 and 3 stars. Was torn on how to rate this, but once I looked at the other books I've rated 2 and 3 stars this year, it's definitely not at the level of dislike I've had for my 2 star reads so I'm bumping it up to 3 for now. I wouldn't say that I 'liked' this book though.

    This was really not for me and not what I expected, but it was readable and I understand the appeal this type of story has for some readers.

    -If you love unlikable characters. The main characte

    Between 2 and 3 stars. Was torn on how to rate this, but once I looked at the other books I've rated 2 and 3 stars this year, it's definitely not at the level of dislike I've had for my 2 star reads so I'm bumping it up to 3 for now. I wouldn't say that I 'liked' this book though.

    This was really not for me and not what I expected, but it was readable and I understand the appeal this type of story has for some readers.

    -If you love unlikable characters. The main character is suuuuper judgmental. She has a horrible mindset about sex, there is some girl hate portrayed, she's just a crappy character. I had no problem understanding that this was a character flaw though, and did not feel like the book was shining any of this in a good light. I felt the whole point of the book is how this model of "perfection" isn't perfect.

    -If you love strange, dark fiction that leaves you with as many questions as answers.

    -If you like thrillers that revolve around the question 'is this real or in her head?'

    -If you hate unlikable main characters.

    -In fact, most of the characters are awful. There are microaggressions toward race, disability, and mental illness portrayed. Again, I felt that these were called out, but they are present. I really have no idea if any of the representation is accurate or problematic overall.

    -If you are triggered by graphic descriptions of injuries (some self injury), medical procedures, or hospitalization.

    -If you cannot easily suspend disbelief while reading. This book deals with a real thing in a very fictional way, which is made clear at one point, but if you can't get around this you probably won't like it.

    -If you need concrete answers.

    So, y'all know I'm a Mindy fangirl, and I continue to be so. No, this is not my favorite book, but what I liked about it most was seeing more of her writing range. The style and characters are distinct from her previous books (it's less of a social commentary). I also liked how the book thoroughly explored its premise. It treats it as though it could be as the character sees it, as a medical condition, a psychological condition, or even none of the above. I did enjoy the ending, it packed that extra punch I needed for this genre.

    However, because of the timing of when I read this, I was easily triggered by the medical and injury aspects and it was a very difficult read for me. I also would have preferred more development of side characters, especially the love interest. And though I don't automatically dislike unlikable characters, in this instance Sasha was just too unlikable for me most of the time. It was very hard for me to care about or be interested what was happening to her.

    This really reminded me of

    in some ways, so if you've read that book, your feelings on it may be a good gauge of how you'd enjoy this one.

    Also of note, since all of Mindy's previous books deal with rape or sexual assault, it's worth noting that this one does not. That may make it a more approachable read for some (if you aren't triggered by the above things), or less so if that's what you love about her writing.

  • Lala BooksandLala

    wtf

  • Korrina  (OwlCrate)

    This was one of the weirdest books I've ever read, but I highly enjoyed it. The writing was dark, sexy and scary. And it featured one of the most messed up main characters I've ever read. Mindy McGinnis never fails to surprise and shock me.

  • Elise (thebookishactress on wordpress)

    I don't know if this is a book you can "review". I feel like I'll be spoiling you by saying a single thing. Besides, how can I describe this book?

    I think there are two things you need to know about this book. First of all, it doesn't depend on the reveal. There isn't really one concrete reveal - rather, there are several that create a web of craziness.

    The other thing you need to know is that

    I don't know if this is a book you can "review". I feel like I'll be spoiling you by saying a single thing. Besides, how can I describe this book?

    I think there are two things you need to know about this book. First of all, it doesn't depend on the reveal. There isn't really one concrete reveal - rather, there are several that create a web of craziness.

    The other thing you need to know is that

    . There are points where I genuinely felt like my deepest fears were being unwound on a deep level, just to unsettle me. I don't know if there's just one element of this book that makes it so creepy and addicting, but what stood out to me was the

    There's a crisp quality to the prose that fits Sasha's voice perfectly. I don't even know how to explain how this book fucked with my mind.

    The blurb is telling you

    , but

    Sasha is a

    person. But

    She has this odd blend of sarcasm and genuine evil - I'd love her at one minute for her delicious inner monologue, then hate myself for ever enjoying such a terrible person as a character. It was really an experience.

    I think what's interesting about this book is how it echoes all those old classics about Some Privileged Asshole Acting Out. You know that genre? The one about really rich privileged men being asshats that somehow reads like tragedy porn and escapism at the same exact time?

    is like a more self-aware version of that genre. And I kind of love it. I think Mindy McGinnis is one of the most self-aware authors I've ever read - this book knows it's unrealistic and makes up for it by being believable as

    .

    I think that's what I'm going to take away from this book, in a way - the intense feeling of

    that somehow stayed around even when I tried to escape this book.

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  • alice (arctic books)

    Holy fuck. I'm not even sure what the fuck I read but I know I loved it. More coherent review to come.

  • Sarah

    (I received an advance copy of this book for free. Thanks to HarperCollins and Edelweiss.)

    This was an interesting contemporary story, about a girl who believed that her heart belonged to her dead twin sister.

    Sasha was one hell of a character, and it was so hard to know whether to believe her or not! She was so dead set that her heart wasn’t hers, and that her dead twin sister was controlling her by it, and it was difficult to know whether her beliefs were real or delusion.

    The storyline in this s

    (I received an advance copy of this book for free. Thanks to HarperCollins and Edelweiss.)

    This was an interesting contemporary story, about a girl who believed that her heart belonged to her dead twin sister.

    Sasha was one hell of a character, and it was so hard to know whether to believe her or not! She was so dead set that her heart wasn’t hers, and that her dead twin sister was controlling her by it, and it was difficult to know whether her beliefs were real or delusion.

    The storyline in this started off being about Sasha and her dead twin sister Shanna (who died in the womb), and how Sasha felt that Shanna was controlling her, and even leaving her messages. Shanna apparently loved this boy called Isaac, who was a bit of a bad boy, and kept taking control of Sasha’s body in order to sneak out and see him.

    The second part of the story was about

    The brilliant thing about this book was how it was so hard to know whether to believe Sasha or not, and the times when she embraced being Shanna and acted out. It was still a little weird though.

    The ending to this was quite interesting, and it did tie things up to some extent.

    7 out of 10

  • Mlpmom (Book Reviewer)

    McGinnis has become an author that I can count on to be blunt, bold, and to hold no punches. When the going gets tough her heroines are gritty and they know how to get down and dirty.

    Her foray in the the YA genre of mystery thriller went off without a hitch. This book was riddled with mystery and intrigue and always left the reader wondering right from wrong and innocent from guilty. Numerous times throughout this story I started to question the heroine herself and had to stop and wonder who exa

    McGinnis has become an author that I can count on to be blunt, bold, and to hold no punches. When the going gets tough her heroines are gritty and they know how to get down and dirty.

    Her foray in the the YA genre of mystery thriller went off without a hitch. This book was riddled with mystery and intrigue and always left the reader wondering right from wrong and innocent from guilty. Numerous times throughout this story I started to question the heroine herself and had to stop and wonder who exactly the bad guys were and who were the good, if there were any at all.

    This left me questioning, reeling, and like most of McGinnis's stories, always wanting more.

    *ARC was provided by the publisher in exchange for an honest review.*

  • Kai

    Since this oustanding book celebrated it's birthday yesterday, here comes the reminder that you should really,

    , pick it up and read it:

    I’ve you’ve read the title and seen the cover you should know what’s coming. I’d recommend you do not read this review and just go in blindly, as did I. I don’t want to tell you anything that could spoil this experience for you. But if you still want to know about it, here you go:

    This is just as dark

    Since this oustanding book celebrated it's birthday yesterday, here comes the reminder that you should really,

    , pick it up and read it:

    I’ve you’ve read the title and seen the cover you should know what’s coming. I’d recommend you do not read this review and just go in blindly, as did I. I don’t want to tell you anything that could spoil this experience for you. But if you still want to know about it, here you go:

    This is just as dark and twisted as the title promises. Probably even darker and more twisted. Believe me, it’s crazy, it’s sick, it’s disgusting and shocking. It’s exactly what I wanted this book to be and I’m glad Mindy McGinnis went this far. YA literature can sometimes shed its protective skin, put its finger in the wound and really cause the ugly and hurtful things to come out. That’s what this book does.

    It’s probably making love to Darren Aronofsky’s Black Swan right this second, that’s how disturbing it is.

    The writing alone is piercing and cruel. Impeccable and cold. Easy for me to fall in love with, but I’m not sure everyone will feel the same about this book. I however am deeply, deeply enchanted. I had high expectations for this book, for Mindy McGinnis, even though this is the first book of hers that I’ve read. She met all of these expectations. Again, her narrative is on a level that I can only dream of. It’s smart and sarcastic, it’s funny in a macabre way, it’s unexpected and beautiful. This woman can write, this much is obvious. I can’t wait to read more.

    The characters are captivating. Most side characters are relatable, which they have to be, because the main character is everything but. They have depth, they are flawed, they are funny and deserve our compassion. Well, most of them. Others are morbid and cold, most of all Sasha Stone, the main character. She is the picture perfect. But a cold one. She’s manipulative and she’ll cut you if you get too close. Severely. She’ll surprise you again and again with her wickedness, but you can never be sure if it’s the crazy speaking out of her or if it’s real. That’s what makes it genius.

    made me feel so many things. Disgust and shock, for sure. But I also took please from this weirdly alluring book. It’s definitely one of my favourite books this year.

  • Amber Robertson

    with someone who took

    days to reply to me. You've been exposed

    One word to describe this book?

    .

    I have never been both utterly disturbed and confused when reading a book.

    manages to successfully do this, however. I was stunned. Completely stunned into silence. I started to get really into this book while I was waiting at the train station to pick up Caitlin, and I'm pretty sure everyone i

    with someone who took

    days to reply to me. You've been exposed

    One word to describe this book?

    .

    I have never been both utterly disturbed and confused when reading a book.

    manages to successfully do this, however. I was stunned. Completely stunned into silence. I started to get really into this book while I was waiting at the train station to pick up Caitlin, and I'm pretty sure everyone in my surrounding area was confused while I whispered "what" to myself over and over.

    The premise of this book was confusing but reading it was even more messed up. I couldn't grasp some aspects and since I did most of the reading of this at night I was afraid to fall asleep in case I had had a twin in the womb (lmao I checked, I didn't).

    Sasha Stone is a good girl though. She plays the clarinet, is in the first chair, and is on her way to being accepted to a prestigious music school. She and her boyfriend fit and she gets good marks. She's the definition of a goody-goody who follows strict rules. Things start to get weird though when a boy who doesn't fit her definition of life starts acting as if they have a thing, and that she gave him her number. Something she

    she didn't do. It's here the book takes a turn I didn't expect. A turn that had me staring at my phone like

    ?! Shit gets weird. It gets wild and I could barely keep up with the story.

    There were boring bits, which had me rolling my eyes and wanting a lot more crazy. Though the crazy would hit and I would be begging for the book to return to the normal because

    . However, the writing style was brilliant. It was a tad jerky in some parts, scenes suddenly changing but that could be because it isn't the final version.

    I have so many questions for the author. How did they create this idea? A book that still has me jumping in the dark and making sure there are no messages from random boys in my phone (there aren't, boys are lame).

    I recommend you all check out this book when it releases - especially if you're looking for a weird book.

  • Hailey (HaileyinBookland)

    I never, ever say that I hate a book because I love books so much and it feels so extreme but oh my goodness I hated this book. There were no redeeming qualities, it was weird as hell (and I'm usually all for weird). The writing and plot were so confusing??? Also I found it to be problematic which made me very uncomfortable. I'm really sad I didn't like this since I enjoyed The Female of the Species so much but this was just... ugh. If there's any bright side it's the fact that I read it so quic

    I never, ever say that I hate a book because I love books so much and it feels so extreme but oh my goodness I hated this book. There were no redeeming qualities, it was weird as hell (and I'm usually all for weird). The writing and plot were so confusing??? Also I found it to be problematic which made me very uncomfortable. I'm really sad I didn't like this since I enjoyed The Female of the Species so much but this was just... ugh. If there's any bright side it's the fact that I read it so quickly.

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